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It’s been a while since I’ve done one of my Thankfulness posts.  My goal was to write one monthly, to find something small, mundane, and frequently overlooked, to be thankful for.  It’s easy to be thankful for the big things.  But the little things?  Those can be a bit more difficult because we don’t even “see” them anymore. 

This month, I am thankful for my watering can. 

I live in an apartment with no outside hose, and I love to garden.  Lord knows I miss being able to stand over my plants with my sprayer attachment and hose and zone out on watering, but for the time being, that’s not possible.  So, I make trips back and forth between the kitchen and the garden.  Many, many, many trips.  That’s my fault because I have so many plants.  😀 

My watering can has the perfect kind of holes so my plants get a gentle spray and not a great gush.  It holds two gallons of water instead of just one, which means fewer trips.  And it’s plastic, which means it doesn’t add a lot of weight to the water as I carry it.  Oh, and it also fits under my faucet!  One I tried didn’t, so that one had to go back to the store. 

That’s my thankful this month.  What are you thankful for?

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My schedule for my Thankfulness posts is the 2nd Thursday of the month, not on Tuesdays.  But that day … well, it’s hard sometimes to write something on thankfulness when your heart is heavy.  That’s probably the best time to though, isn’t it? 

I have a friend, a dear friend of 30 years (wow!) who’s going through a divorce.  I met her not too long after I met my ex, because my ex and her husband went to high school together.  She and her husband chose Team Vanessa when I got divorced, and since we lived much closer than we do now, they were able to help me a lot – giving me a place to crash, food to eat after my ex cleaned out the accounts, that sort of thing.  I honestly don’t know what I would have done without her.  She never wavered in her support of me.  As my ex’s true nature became more and more exposed, she realized all I’d kept silent about during my marriage, out of shame and embarrassment, and some misplaced sense of honor.  She stood by me when even my blood relatives decided they liked my ex better than they liked me. 

Blood makes you related.  Loyalty makes you family.

When my friend and her husband were going through some marital difficulties a few years ago, I tried to be supportive of her, and their marriage, because I knew she was hopeful that things would be resolved, and after a time, they pretty much were. 

Or so it seemed. 

For all intents and purposes, their marriage has been in a steady state of decline for the last 10-15 years and she never really told me how bad things were getting until after the fact.

Why do we do that?  Why do we hide the state of things like that?  I know, I know, it’s a rhetorical question.  *heavysigh*

It brings up so many hard memories.  Things I thought, hoped, I’d forgotten.  She’ll tell me something her husband did and I’ll say, “Oh yeah, I remember when my ex did that too.”  It’s re-living some really difficult moments.  Sometimes I think I should write it all down, all the memories, so that I really will forget.  I never seem to remember anything once I write it down.  The paper remembers so my brain doesn’t have to anymore.  That’s my theory anyway.

I think the thing that hurts the most is that her husband has been behaving in pretty much the same fashion as my ex did.  And it hurts because I would never ever wish that kind of situation on anyone, least of all someone I care about.  At least she knows that I know exactly what she’s going through.  Small comfort, that. 

So now she is going to the home of another friend of hers, to crash.  I am thankful she has that friend, that place to go.  I wish it could be me but if it can’t, I’m glad she has someplace. 

I am thankful for my friend.  She’s a loyal friend.  A generous friend.  A true friend. 

I am thankful I am free.  Divorce is hard, but a terrible marriage is harder I think. 

I am also thankful for the marriage I have now.  It is all the more sweet because I have been on the other side. 

This is better.

I will be really thankful if my friend can find it, too.

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Wow, is it the 2nd Thursday of the month already?  And it’s June!  Good grief, didn’t we just start 2016 like, a couple weeks ago?!

I was trying to think of something to blog about for my monthly Thankfulness post.  You know “the rules.”  Well, my rules for me, anyway.  Smile  Something small, usually overlooked, taken for granted, household item.  Like, paper towels.

So this month, I’ve landed on headphones.  Why?  Well, to make a short story loooong, I was scrolling through my email, which is like 19 miles long.  I came across this email from Google for their Play music.  I’d saved it for some reason from more than a year ago and never got back to it.  So, I clicked it, and it took me to their radio stations list.  Now, typically I don’t have music playing.  Not because I don’t like it – on the contrary, I love it, and I miss it terribly!  But, during the day I’m doing the homeschool thing and it would distract the kids, and I don’t want to use headphones because I couldn’t hear the kids if they needed something.  Plus, I’m up and down doing household stuff and headphones would tie me to the computer.  So, no music, no talk radio, nothing like that. 

I don’t play music at night because dinner, and family, and my husband hates my music anyway, lol.  Usually we have something else going on, either a movie or game, so my personal music would just interfere with that.

But, at night, after my husband goes to bed, and the kids are busy doing their thing, and the housework is (mostly) done, I realized it’s my moment!  I can put on my headphones and chair dance to loud music to my heart’s content!  And this Google Radio thing will help me get back in touch with all the music I lost when I lost all my CDs a few years ago.  How awesome is that? 

So, air drums!  Who’s with me?! 

Yay for headphones!

On a more serious note, I’m really thankful it’s not broken.

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It’s the 2nd Thursday of the month, and that means it’s time for a Thankfulness post!  Once a month I try to find something outside the standard to be thankful for.  Little, overlooked things that we barely take note of anymore because they’re so much a part of our day to day lives that we don’t really think about them. 

Today I am thankful for the heating pad.  I don’t recall why I got it, or how long ago it was, but I knew it was one of those things a home should have. 

I don’t know what I did to my shoulder, but I can barely move it.  I have to keep my elbow tucked into my side, otherwise my shoulder just screams if I extend it.  That means I’ve been trying to do things with my left hand (hahahaha!) or do the T-Rex dance.  Also hysterical.  Imagine trying to iron with one arm tied to your waist!  And horror of horrors, I can barely reach into the microwave to heat up my coffee.  The door opens on the right so I’ve been trying to reach over the door to get my coffee in and out.  Which reminds me I’m also thankful for the paper towels to clean up coffee splashes!

The last couple of nights I’ve been trying to sleep with the heating pad on my shoulder.  I should try to finagle a way to put straps on it or something, because trying to keep the flat heating pad on my round shoulder, well, it’s been an adventure!  Lay down, get the heating pad in place ow ow ow ahhh now don’t move don’t move don’t move! Which of course means I wake up a few times all sweaty, and stiff from not moving, but while the pad’s on, at least my shoulder feels a little better. 

And I am super thankful for that! 

What are you thankful for this month? 

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I almost forgot!  It’s time for my regular thankfulness post!  Once a month I try to find something small, something taken for granted, to be thankful for. 

Today, as I was rinsing off my tallow, after its 4th washing, I set it on cooling racks to dry off.  Nothing fancy, just your ordinary gridded cookie cooling racks.  And I realized how glad I was that I had them, because I didn’t want to set all that tallow down where air couldn’t get to it to dry it off.


When I got them, I never realized how much I’d use them.  I use them for their intended use of course, cooling homemade cookies, but I also use them for drying things, like my bricks of tallow, or bars of homemade soap.  I use them to cool cake layers, as large trivets, anything I might want raised to keep from scorching the counter, or anything I might want to get extra air circulation.  They’re a little thing, I mean, you don’t really think about cooling racks, do you?  I never did, never even had any until I was an adult.  Now they’re so useful and handy I don’t know how I ever got along without them.


Is there something you’re thankful for?

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When I asked my kids today if they had any suggestions as to what I could write about that I was thankful for, my son immediately offered, “Toilets!” 

True enough, that.  But, I didn’t really want to write about toilets.  His next suggestion was “Hot water.”

Yeah.  How thankful am I for hot water?  Loads!  And interestingly enough, I really was thinking of that just a couple of nights ago, as I was filling up a pan from dinner to soak before washing. 

We take it so for granted, this gift.  We turn a knob and poof, hot water.  Earth-temperature water would be amazing enough, but we have the ability to actually heat the stuff in tanks before it comes out of our tap. 

Truly, a blessing, and one I am so thankful for!  Every sink full of soaking dishes, every load of laundry, every bath, every shower, every dishwasher load, every mop bucket for washing the floors, I am thankful.  Thankful I don’t have to walk further than a few feet to the nearest faucet, that I can simply lift a handle and there it is, ready for me.  And bonus, our heater is supplied by our hot water tank, so being able to heat our place is also because of hot water.  So yeah, grateful.  It gets cold here.

How about you?  Is there anything you’re thankful for this month?

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It is time for Thursday Thankfulness.  I started this tradition for myself a few years ago on my old blog, when things were really, well, things were not good.  Life was kicking us pretty hard, and I had this notion that an attitude of gratitude might help me in some way.  Only, I didn’t want it to be the “standard” gratitude thing.  Of course everyone is thankful for their families and children, things like that.  I wanted to find little things to be grateful for, the things that are so much a part of our ordinary existence that we don’t even think about them anymore.  Like … toilet paper.  You never think about toilet paper … until you run out.  And then you are so grateful when you have it again, lol. 

I did a thankfulness post every week for a year, and then I went to a monthly schedule, but I’ve grown lax in the last couple of years.  So I want to take a moment to commit once again to regularly posting about something to be grateful for, something small, something that seems commonplace.  It’s easy to be grateful for big things, and to feel a sting perhaps when there aren’t any big things.  We started a Blessing Jar a couple years ago to make a note of those times when we felt a sense of blessing in our day-to-day lives, and this year we’re really encouraging the kids to write their own notes too – gratitude isn’t just for grown-ups anymore! 

So, I look around my desk for things to be thankful for … there’s a lot, really.  I have too many jars of homemade balms I wanted to experiment with, and too many (really I mean not enough, lol!) pens, But this moment, I see the sticky notes and feel thankful.  I use them all the time.  I make notes to myself to put in my notebook, whether it’s a Bible verse I want to remember, a note to my husband, a task I don’t want to forget.  I use them daily as I leave notes when correcting my kids’ schoolbooks, and my daughter writes love notes back to me on them.  I love that they come in so many colors now.  They suit my current needs so well, and I am thankful for these little note powerhouses.  I even put sticky notes on my index cards.  (there’s another thing to be grateful for!  I’m an index card carrying girl!)  And I love that there is even a digital version of sticky notes on my computer.  Sticky notes add a nice little level of convenience to my life, and I am thankful.

How about you?  Is there something you’re thankful for this month?

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It is past time for a Thursday Thankfulness post!  I seem to have slacked off on this over the Summer, and slacking on gratitude is never a good thing.

This month I am so grateful for the chance to visit with my step-brother.  Now, we were never officially steps, but our parents dated when we were young and we thought we were going to be steps, and just kind of stayed that way in our friendship even though our respective parents went their separate ways.

Since we live in different parts of the country now, and have only seen each other a handful of times in the last few decades, being able to visit was a rare treat.  He was only able to stay for the weekend, but how nice to just hang out!  We even got to stay up late once talking like when we were young and would chat away for hours on the phone.  Open-mouthed smile

He is one of those few people in my life who have been faithful and loyal, so much more than those with whom I’ve shared DNA.  We may not be related, but we are family, and for that, I am grateful beyond measure.

What are you thankful for this month?

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