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Pruning and Blooming

Found this in my drafts folder, that I wrote last Autumn but never posted for some reason. 

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As I was deadheading my flower pots the other day, I was mildly surprised at how much the spent blooms concealed.  Once I started clearing them out, there was a lot of junk underneath the leaves, lots of debris and fallen petals, just hiding there beneath the fading flowers.  I knew it needed to be done, and there were many almost-but-not-quite-spent blooms that had to be cut back, along with the dead stuff.  I knew it was good for the plants, that it would bring forth more blooms and fresh growth. 

And I wondered if that’s how the Lord feels when He deals with us, sometimes. 

Our hearts can look okay, especially if you don’t look too close.  But there can be a lot of … crap in there.  Crap we haven’t dealt with, or let Him take care of.  Things we like to keep hidden.  Shameful thoughts, painful thoughts, mean and sinful thoughts.  I wondered if He looks at me the way I look at my plants.  “I know it seems severe, and I know you think there’s still something good here, but trust Me, getting rid of this stuff will make you so much more happy and beautiful!  Your spirit will shine!” 

I wanted to be picky with my garden deadheading.  Clip this dead flower here, cut that dying one there, dainty dainty nip and tuck.  It wasn’t long before I was wishing I just had a big hedge-trimming kind of tool to just zip the plants down to the tops of the pots and be done with it. 

There’s a line from some cartoon my husband and I once saw long ago, where a character said, “He needed killin’.”  We laughed and it became part of our family joking around.  Dark, perhaps, but it’s kind of how we joke.  But it went through my head as I trimmed my flowers, especially as I cut blooms that weren’t totally dead yet but would be in a day or two.  “They needed killin’, they’ll bloom so much nicer now!”  It wouldn’t surprise me at all to hear Yeshua say to me, “Those thoughts, they need killin’!” 

Yes, Lord, they do.  They’re not thoughts that are good for me, or anyone else, frankly.  Good thoughts, healthy thoughts, Christ-centered thoughts cannot bloom where angry, selfish thoughts live.  I suppose that’s kind of what Scripture means when it says:

John 15:2 (HCSB) Every branch in Me that does not produce fruit He removes, and He prunes every branch that produces fruit so that it will produce more fruit.

Colossians 1:10 (HCSB) so that you may walk worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work and growing in the knowledge of God.

John 12:24 (HCSB) “I assure you: Unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains by itself. But if it dies, it produces a large crop.

John 15:16 (HCSB) You did not choose Me, but I chose you. I appointed you that you should go out and produce fruit and that your fruit should remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He will give you.

I suppose pruning is never fun, neither for the prunee nor the pruner.  But, it needs doing, and once it’s done, the results can be so beautifully worth it.  And if the Lord loves me enough to prune, well isn’t that in and of itself, a kind of blessing?  Doesn’t it show that He believes there is something bloom-worthy in me and He wants to bring it out? 

I’d like to believe that. 

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A sigh’s not just a sigh

Apparently, I sigh a lot.  There are times I’ll be sitting at my computer, reading something, and from across the room my husband will ask me what’s wrong.  “Huh?  Nothing!  Why?”

“You sighed, so I figured something was wrong.”

It was a relief, actually, to come across this article about the mechanisms of the sigh.  I’m normal!  Well, you know.  Sometimes. 

But, I’m not a mouthbreather.  I’m not depressed.  Nothing’s wrong.  Usually nothing’s wrong.  Sometimes I’m frustrated because I forgot to do something, but for the most part, I’m good.  Whew!  *sigh*


Californian scientists have identified the source of the sigh. It is not just a response to sadness, depression or despair: it is, also, they report, a life-sustaining reflex that helps preserve lung function.

A sigh’s not just a sigh – it’s a fundamental life-sustaining reflex | Science | The Guardian

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40 Words

I found this article a few weeks back.  It was fascinating really.  How many times have you ever said, “I wish I knew what to call this feeling … “?  Well, here are some words that might help.  I know going down the list, there were a few I identified with, especially this one:


n. the subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place, as maladapted to your surroundings as a seal on a beach—lumbering, clumsy, easily distracted, huddled in the company of other misfits, unable to recognize the ambient roar of your intended habitat, in which you’d be fluidly, brilliantly, effortlessly at home.

I confess, if I could only have one word to describe my entire life, it would be that one.  Perhaps on my tombstone, I’ll have “No Longer Feeling Monachopsis!” engraved on it. 

In any case, I’m thinking I should add The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows to my InoReader

Enjoy!  And may you find a word of your very own.  Smile

Exulansis: when there’s not an actual word for what you’re trying to explain. We feel more than we have the language to articulate and express, which is in itself profoundly frustrating. People work through emotions by being able to identify them and use them as signals. A lot of the time, we’re left in the dark. Enter the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, the brainchild of writer John Koenig, who is here to give you words for the feelings you may not have even known you were having. Here are 40 of them:

40 Words For Emotions You’ve Felt, But Couldn’t Explain | Thought Catalog

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Holiday Light Displays

I found this post in my drafts folder, from last year.  I checked the link and it still works, yay!  I love the Christmas lights and the different ways people decorate their homes.  My husband and I used to drive around during the holiday season just to see the lit-up houses, before our son was born. 

Do you put Christmas lights up where you live?  Do you like to drive around just to see the pretty lights? 

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Baltimore, M.D.

Branson, Mo.

Portland, Ore.

Leah Ginsberg
December 9, 2014
There’s nothing that says holiday season like a killer display of lights. Sure it’s fun to check out the towering tree as it twinkles in New York City’s Rockefeller Center or the Christmas extravaganza at Disney World. But those aren’t the only spots to see spectacular festive lights. Here are some more off-the-beaten-path, quirky spots to check out holiday lights around the U.S.

via These Off-the-Beaten-Path Holiday Light Displays Will Blow Your Mind.

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Holiday Cooking Hacks

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Criminal, or not?

Some time ago, perhaps 2004, my husband sent me this quiz.  Some of the images they used back then were of known serial killers, like Son of Sam, so they were easy to spot for someone like me who avidly watched TV shows (and read books!) about serial killers.  It’s sort of a hobby of mine.  Or was, anyway, when we used to have a TV service.  I don’t know exactly what it is that fascinates me about them, but I do know when it started.  I wrote about it on my old blog here: 

I know when it started … | The “Ness” in DarcNess 😉 

I AM a horror fan, after all | The “Ness” in DarcNess 😉

What Kind of Horror Movie Are You? | The “Ness” in DarcNess 😉

I’d forgotten I saved this post until I found it while doing some cleaning in my drafts folder.  For fun, I took it again.  All the faces are different!  I didn’t recognize a single one that came up, and I still got 80%.  I’ve often joked that the thing about serial killers is that they don’t have “Serial Killer” helpfully stamped across their foreheads.  But sometimes, if you pay attention and trust your instinct, you can still spot them anyway. 

A criminal, or not?

Some of the people you see below are convicted criminals. Others are law-abiding citizens. Can you tell who is who?

Criminal, or not?


What results did you get? 

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Drafty Bits

This story, from about a year and a half ago, just cracked me up.  How could anyone not love Texas?  Well, I suppose if you’re a burglar or bad guy, you might not like it so much.  But for the law abiding, it’s gotta be a boon!

I think there’s a big part of my heart that belongs to Texas.  I may not be from there, but sometimes I think I ought to be, lol.

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Burglary Suspect Calls 911 for Help After Homeowner Pulls a Gun on Him – YouTube

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Drafty Bits

Another post from the Drafts folder.  I found this one I’d saved from a couple years ago, before my daughter had her episode with a tick last Spring.  I saved it because the thought of forced veganism scared the crap out of me.  Long before I was ever on a Ketogenic diet, I was still a meat lover – which made going Keto not that huge of a deal. 

I still say ticks are evil.  Vampire spiders, after all, and we all know vampires are cursed!  LOL  They carry lots of diseases besides this one and Lyme’s Disease.  But, you knew that already.  Smile

It’s an interesting read, and shows that there’s still so much we don’t know about these nasty bugs and what they can do. 

A bite from the lone star tick, so-called for the white spot on its back, looks innocent enough. But University of Virginia researchers say saliva that sneaks into the tiny wound may trigger an allergic reaction to meat — agonizing enough to convert lifelong carnivores into wary vegetarians.

“People will eat beef and then anywhere from three to six hours later start having a reaction; anything from hives to full-blown anaphylactic shock,” said Dr. Scott Commins, assistant professor of medicine at the University of Virginia in Charlottesville.

Allergic to Meat: Lone Star Tick May Make Vegetarians of Some – Yahoo! News

Have a wonderful Wednesday, even if you don’t eat meat.  Open-mouthed smile

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